work is work

i can say i love what i do for a living, working in TV production, but sometimes you feel you can kill yourself or your workmates.

and i wonder when i become my own boss if there will still be days when i'll feel that urge to scream and shout in frustration or rebellion. knowing myself there probably will be...haha.

understanding people and trying to get along with others is such an important part of working. either you're mature, bitchy, moody, anything! and how you decide how to react to others determines how your working environment will be.

one thing i can say now is that my work is a test to my maturity. that i consciously decide how to react or when to react. and sometimes it's such a burden. isn't it fun to just wallow in what you feel and not give a damn about the repercussions? but then again the consequences...it's a vicious cycle!

shopping

i was kinda on a shopping binge. i bought 3 pairs of shoes, 2 jackets, 3 pairs of pants, 5 tops, socks, underwear and a pair of earrings. the most i've bought in the past 3-4 months. because i finally finished the payments on my nano and digicam!

grabe...i don't know what got into me. it's just that i reviewed my wardrobe and realized a lot of my stuff was old already. and i sorta feel guilty coz even if the stuff didn't really cost an arm and a leg it was still a lot! hmmm i really need it?!

why is it that it feels good to shop? an adrenaline rush of sorts...

catching up

it's a month into the new year and my life is really different!

the biggest thing is that i go out and spend time with my mom. and within january my mom met charles, mike and anne. three people that i have spent a lot of time with the past 2 years (time that i didn't spend with my mom).

i went to a fitting for the wedding of a high school friend, Michelle. once again i'm a bridesmaid. my dress is in shades of pink, i'm hoping it will fit me well! i'm thinking that this is some sort of rite of passage for me...it's the third time i'm going to be a bridesmaid!

second biggest is my job! i'm still in tv production but it's different coz i actually get to produce segments - go out on shoots, brainstorm, edit. i'm having fun again and enjoying what i'm doing (again!)

along with the new job is more time for myself! as much as possible i end my work day by 530pm plus i have my weekends. then i go to the gym, i'm happy i can work out - was beginning to feel icky. or i go home and rest or watch tv. i haven't been able to do this for more than a year. i'd usually get home late and go straight to bed. but now i can actually lounge around and do nothing! and if they're free, i go and meet friends.

i love how this year's beginning! :)