weeksery

i've been working for Bantay Bata for one week! hmm...it seemed like i would have a slow beginning, coz the training for the job would have to do actual work - shoots, interviewing, writing. and since i'm not familiar with the way things are done here i'd have to sit in in the shoots of the other reporters. but i'm glad it has been otherwise. some events needed coverage so i've done 3 shoots and i'm preparing a feature on child abuse in schools. i'm glad those stories were assigned to me coz i'm freelance and i'm paid per script!

considering that i had a regular job for more than a year, it was weird for me to not have money coming in at the end of the month. Ack! the perils of being freelance...not knowing when you'll actually have money to burn!

good thing it's easy for me to adjust my lifestyle. well i guess coz even when i was earning regularly i always made it a point not to get use to spending all of the money i earn. so now that i have to scrimp a bit i don't have to do it with a heavy heart. buti na lang sadya akong kuripot!

so far the people are nice and very accommodating. i guess that since i'm working for a foundation, a NGO, the people are innately kind. and i've also learned that here in the philippines you have to smile often (even if it isn't part of my personality) and say po and take on a "sweet" accent (another thing that is so not me, hello? sarcasm?) ay grabe! but what's the effort if it will make things and work easier for me in general. and if i really think about it, it's not that big a deal.

but then again why do i have to change? easy. to be able to survive in the philippine workplace. because people judge me by the way i look - i.e. a person who has money and is a bitch. oh well...at least it's easy to change when the people are easy to work with. so it's worth it.

although don't you guys go thinking that i've changed ok? this is my work persona...haha ;-)

i've resigned - part 2

from a previous post:
but don't get me wrong! my new job isn't perfect, there are growing pains and adjustments to be made. and sometimes i find myself thinking "what have i gotten myself into?!" but i love the show and that it's about creating awareness on voc tech studies and that people can make a good living if they choose this way to a better life.

yes i've resigned from yet another job...when my stint with NMI officially ended last january 15. and two months to the date i tendered my resignation.

if i found myself thinking "what have i gotten myself into?!" it turned into "why the fuck am i still here?!"

i've always thought that NMI was charmed when it came to the people they chose for their organization. and now i miss it so much. yes i left because of the people that i had to work with. not that i'm a joy to always work with, but i know i'm not evil or mean spirited. and when faced with something like that, i'd rather throw the towel in than put up with it. forget about pride! i'm thinking about my sanity and happiness ;)

plus it was a regular thing and the boss wanted us to come into the office if there wasn't a shoot or editing. hmm i wanna be freelance for the meantime. i realized how important time is for me. to actually have time to myself to do things i want to do or things that i have to do that doesn't concern work.

so now i'm going freelance! even though i resigned last wednesday, i got an interview with Bantay Bata last thursday. and now it's my first day! i'm excited coz it looks like i'm going to learn a lot here. :)

kwento

i found myself waiting and with a lot of time to sit and do nothing so i though i'd actually make a blog entry...

it's weird how things are now. my life was pretty routine beofre: go to work, do my job; go home and sleep; go clubbing, partying, drinking; work out once in a while. well i wasn't conciously trying to break that routine. i guess i thought tht whatever was suppose to happen would happen on it's own. another lesson learned!

first major turn in my life was my decision to leave the comfort of NMI for a show that would feature TESDA and the vocational technical industry. because of this my schedule changed. since NMI has a flexi time policy i could sleep in and go to the office in the afternoon. it also meant that i'd have to end my workday late at night. now i start early so i get home early. i actually get to go malling before going home or even watch TV.And i get to sleep earlier!

another thing i'm able to do is go to the gym regularly, at least four times a week. exercising makes me feel good. i see the effect it has on my body, though i'm still not as thin as i'd like to be or thin enough to think of myself as "thin." it also helps me deal with stress, it's an outlet for it. exercising puts me in a good mood, although it can't keep me in a good mood forever.

since it feels like i have more time, i want to do more! and i look for different things to do or places to go. simple as going to a different part of metro manila to eat or go malling.

just last weekend i was able to go to virgin's resort in batangas. it was a day trip with Raquel and Russell her fiance. i loved the place, it's new and the facilities are nice. the cherry on top was the food - yummy and great presentation! it really was my money's worth.

another thing i got to do was speed dating. i've heard about it, seen it TV or in the movies. i was a bit scared and apprehensive about it but it turned out to be a blast! my mind set going into the activity was to meet people and enjoy myself. of course there were some that i wasn't attracted to but i made a point to talk to them and avoid those awful silent, awkward moments. at the end of the night i found myself glad to have joined. the results? i got six matches. have yet to see what will come out of it.

i guess i t seems that i have more time now coz i make a concious effort to make time to do things.

a major change in my life is that i spend time wih my mom. go out for a bite to eat, watch a movie and talk. things are definitely different between me and my mom. i wonder if it's cause we don't live in the same house anymore - since we don't see each other as often, there's less of a chance for me to get on her nerves! ;-)

i'm kind of finding it hard to keep in touch with old friends. but that's a problem with scheduling and i can't do much about that. just remember to text and invite them out every once in a while.

but don't get me wrong! my new job isn't perfect, there are growing pains and adjustments to be made. and sometimes i find myself thinking "what have i gotten myself into?!" but i love the show and that it's about creating awareness on voc tech studies and that people can make a good living if they choose this way to a better life.

all in all i'm happy with the way things have been going. though i do miss rica, pabsy, binky, wanggo, howard, wowie, will, paolo, arjun, aj, manny, cathy, marco, mica, bam, paolo, boom, fay, lyra, mic, eyron, bel, and nelz. and how it was working with them, how at times thigns would be difficult but we'd understand each other and our work. great times. i'd definitely make an effort to keep in touch with them!

a bit of a tan

i had a horrible friday last week! work, an anxiety attack, puffy eyes, emotions going overboard. luckily i had a dinner date with raquel so i was able to vent and talk out my feelings. then on a whim i said let's go to the beach! and she agreed and the thing is, we actually went to the beach on sunday!

when we left it was drizzling but i kept my fingers crossed that the weather would clear. and on the road whenever the sun would peek through the clouds i'd cheer. good thing raquel and russel (her fiance) didn't find me annoying!

but we finally got there and i could slightly feel the warmth of the sun on my arms or maybe it was wishful thinking? after the welcome drink we went swimming, well actually raquel got pushed around by the waves and i watched her onthe shore. but i slathered on the tanning lotion and sat back laughing at her.

although the sun wasn't at it's hottest and burning temp i was able to get away with a bit of a tan...



but i really enjoyed that day! i was able to relax and the resort we went to virgina's at batangas was really nice and the food was yummy. wouldn't mind going there again ;-)

philosophy

it's been a while! sucks that i don't have a computer so i'm not able to regularly go online. oh well! but i've come up with a philosophy - the only thing in life that should be stressful is work!

all the relationships and situations should be things that make you happy and help you enjoy life more :) coz it kinda sucks having to go through life thinking and being harassed. so i've decided that if there are things that stress me out i should do my best to get over it or avoid it.

then again whatever happens to me or the way that i allow things to affect me is totally up to me. so no more worries, as much as possible. one thing i've been doing is at the end of the day, right before going to sleep, i list things that i'm glad i did or happened. go to sleep with happy thoughts! :-)